Have you ever had something happen in your life so major that you just couldn't get past it no matter what? I have had a burden on me for going on three years.
Until last night I have been praying and struggling so hard with what happened and wanting this burden off my shoulders, but no matter what I could not let it go. Until last night God has kept me struggling with it, not sure why but I know there was a reason, as there is always a reason with all that God does in our lives.
I will not go into detail, but I know that I am free of the burden and God opened my eyes and wants me to be a better person. I feel free of what happened a few years back and so I can move on with my life and with the rest of the family this happened with. I just felt like I was never going to be free of this, and I just could not understand why God would let me stay so miserable with this. I may never know, however I do know I am free now with his help and I can move on with my life.
If you have something that is a burden and you need understanding, give it to God. In time he will open your eyes and help you to understand and to forgive if that is what needs to happen. It may not happen overnight or when you want it to, but in his time he will help you with it.